And so it begins

And so it begins. The next chapter opening before me like a flower in bloom. I am calm. My usual state of letting my mind run on over drive, hyping up the rest of me, is strangely absent. I am focused. I am ready. Calmly waiting for it all to begin. Here’s to the rest of my life. Living, loving, with grace.

I am blessed to have shared many conversations lately, with people, about people. Especially about my love of  finding out things about people you could/would never have guessed upon your initial meetings and sometimes even well beyond that. Things you don’t even know about people you’ve known for some time. I love the fact that we are all a kaleidoscope of life –  lives even. Some we show to some and some we show to others and some we keep only for ourselves.

It is one of the main reasons I love photography. Being able to tell a visual narrative of (an aspect of) someone’s life. To select what you think best visually tells a particular person’s story. To all of my friends reading this, be prepared to receive a phone call from me in the not too distant future to ask you to allow me to document an aspect of you and your life. Please say yes.

We are all connected. We all share stories. It is how we know who we are.

reflected

balloonface

All images Copyright Ketakii Jewson-Brown.

Aggggghhhhhhrrrrr….

Now that that’s off my chest…..

I am currently feeling like there is nowhere near enough time in the day. Any day. Everyday. My mind is reeling with thoughts – necessary and unnecessary. I am trying my best to just be and to let it go…. but I just can’t seem to manage for more than a minute or two. (A movie or similar distraction helps me to just be for a longer stint…. but eventually that feeling creeps back in).

Along with this I am also feeling COMPLETELY unmotivated and lacking in any form of discipline needed to achieve one’s goals. And goals I have a plenty! So, what to do? I have no idea other than to simply keep trying to just be, go with the flow and let it go. Hopefully sooner rather than later my motivation and discipline with be back in abundant form ready to whip me into line. Perhaps bringing with them a feeling of timelessness and that there is no need to rush. And to remind myself that this too shall pass and there IS time enough to do what one wants. Maybe just not everything at once and everything right now!

So I am going to remind myself of everything I am grateful for. To enjoy my life. To stay calm and carry on with a smile on my face and a spring (big or small) in my step. If the side of the street your walking on is a bit dark and gloomy, cross the road and get some sunshine on your face.

 

Action speaks louder

Intention isn’t enough

or so I’m told

Though it is the beginning of most

The difference between

thinking about

and actually doing

is stark

I’m stuck

two feet bogged down

by intention

I need a winch

someone

or

something

to tow me

out

up

above

beyond.

 

 

Dizzy my life

I want to wrap you up

to engulf you

leaving you gasping for air

I want to disrupt this sediment

we find ourselves in

dizzy our lives

like a snow globe in a child’s hands

I want to tousle you

leaving you disheveled and spent

though yearning for more

I want to shake this foundation

and watch all that is tedious

fall away

leaving nothing

but ourselves in each other’s arms

entwined

imbedded

branded

together.

It’s Been A While…..

It’s been a while since my last blog. Ages in fact. There are so many things to write about yet I am struggling to find [make] the time. I am also thinking about trying to keep this blog somewhat consistent in it’s content. There I go again, thinking about defining something, controlling it’s outcome, stifling it so to speak. Why?  ‘Cos that’s what we do…. well, that’s what I do, or think about doing. “My blog is about such and such and ONLY such and such”. But that doesn’t sit with me.

I will allow myself one definition, in a broad sense, it is about me. My life, my experiences, my take on things, my ramblings to and at the world. Me in all of my glory and dysfunction. In all my learning – mistakes and growth. All of this written about with grace. Because we can all benefit from reading about others and their take on things.

We are not our best intentions. We are what we do. – Amy Dickinson [The Mighty Queens of Freeville]

The above quote came out of a book I picked up at the library for 50 cents. It had been sitting on the book self at home for at least a couple of months before I picked it up the other day, drawn to it for some unknown reason. I now know that the above quote was the reason. I love books and how they find you. This is also why I love writing and the instant gratification that is blogging.

From here on in, I will write about WHATEVER tickles my fancy, for myself mostly, but also for you. Sharing is caring after all.

And I will aim to do so weekly.